I. You are going to check every social media site he has and you are going to refresh it over and over again in hopes that it will give you some hints as to what you did so wrong and why he is gone.
1. He is not coming back. Stop searching.
II. You are going to be listening to music and his favourite song will come on, your mind is going to flood with memories of him and you are going to feel like you are drowning and no matter how hard you try to get above water, your lungs fill up with his water. Without him, you cannot see the surface.
2. Just swim up a little farther. I know your lungs burn but you can make it. Fresh air will feel so good.
III. You are going to cry yourself to sleep. No, that is not a cliche and yes, it fucking sucks. You are going to wake up with tear stained cheeks and swollen eyes. You are not going to want to get out of bed and that is okay but, when you do, you have every right to be proud.
3. He ripped away everything you ever knew when he left. You have the right to feel like even getting out of bed is hard.
IV. You are going to be driving and want to swerve straight off the road because thoughts of him invade your head. Just keep driving. Keep going.
4. I know he is invading your thoughts but he's starting to slip away and it is time that you let him. He was not meant for holding on to.
V. It is going to rip you to shreds and I know, you are going to be so broken not even glue can hold you together but you are also going to grow. You are going to learn how to survive on your own. Sometimes, it is okay to depend on others.
5. The sky is not falling and neither are you. It is time to pick yourself up again and stop allowing his memory to crunch your bones and sccatter your heart. You are one, you are whole. You are home all by yourself. You are your own home. Stop welcoming him in, he does not deserve your key or your shelter. Shelter yourself.
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