I don't belong, I know. So, I face the wind, count stars and let go. I am an ancient idea in a mortal body. Although there are limitations to my life, my soul is unlimited and free.

You do not bleed ichor anymore. This is the colour of wine and this is the smell of the sea on a winter's day. Do you remember what I told you? That the hollow in my chest in only human? I think it was a lie. I think you are hollow, too. Olympus fell too long ago and everyone knows heaven is only a lie. Our love is a myth and even I do not believe in it. You're too bright and I think i could be burning.

Here are the things I want for you:

I want you to choose yourself. It's fine for you to detach yourself from these unhealthy things that keep on hindering your ability to grow.

I want you to smile without forcing yourself. Let it out and shout it aloud at these circumstances . Tell over why it makes you sad, you don't need to hide away any pain; tell them it hurts you so bad.

Finally, I want you to remember me, for staying away and for leaving, instead of holding on. I had loved you so much that it kee[s me questioning you never deserve any of the aches I had caused you.

Remember me for letting you go because I know you're never better off without me.

Tell me what you want. I promise to give you so much more than that.

Tough Love that I Need to Hear

I. You are going to check every social media site he has and you are going to refresh it over and over again in hopes that it will give you some hints as to what you did so wrong and why he is gone.
1. He is not coming back. Stop searching.

II. You are going to be listening to music and his favourite song will come on, your mind is going to flood with memories of him and you are going to feel like you are drowning and no matter how hard you try to get above water, your lungs fill up with his water. Without him, you cannot see the surface.
2. Just swim up a little farther. I know your lungs burn but you can make it. Fresh air will feel so good.

III. You are going to cry yourself to sleep. No, that is not a cliche and yes, it fucking sucks. You are going to wake up with tear stained cheeks and swollen eyes. You are not going to want to get out of bed and that is okay but, when you do, you have every right to be proud.
3. He ripped away everything you ever knew when he left. You have the right to feel like even getting out of bed is hard.

IV. You are going to be driving and want to swerve straight off the road because thoughts of him invade your head. Just keep driving. Keep going.
4. I know he is invading your thoughts but he's starting to slip away and it is time that you let him. He was not meant for holding on to.

V. It is going to rip you to shreds and I know, you are going to be so broken not even glue can hold you together but you are also going to grow. You are going to learn how to survive on your own. Sometimes, it is okay to depend on others.
5. The sky is not falling and neither are you. It is time to pick yourself up again and stop allowing his memory to crunch your bones and sccatter your heart. You are one, you are whole. You are home all by yourself. You are your own home. Stop welcoming him in, he does not deserve your key or your shelter. Shelter yourself.

Reasons not to kiss her:

1. This sort of love is not allowed, you are both too soft and the world around you is all knives and chipped teeth.
2. No one ever taught you how to love. Your war paint and scarred hands could never hold her like she deserves.
3. No one has ever loved you this full. Surely, you would drown in it all.
4. She belongs in a museum and you are merely here to gaze. Look around you. All the signs scream "Do Not Touch".
5. She touches you like you're fragile and if you break, you won't be able to put yourself back together again.
6. She is all bubblegum skies and chap-stick kisses and you cannot watch the love run out of another person's eyes.
7. If you jump, she might catch you and then you'd have to watch as she tumbled through the dark.
8. Her gaze is too gentle. You will not be the one to tell her that not everything can be fixed with a smile.
9. She is so good. She is so good. You cannot ruin one more good thing.
10. You will  not watch her crumble under the weight of your sins, she is too light, too breathless to be caught up in the dizziness of your heart.

Reasons to kiss her:
1. She loves you and her eyes are closed. Didn't your mother ever tell you not to leave a good thing waiting?

My fingertips trace you, wanting to be as permanent a part of you as the tattoos on your skin.